Allah-u-Abha.
Wow. So much has happened in the past week, it’s getting hard to keep track and make sure I get everything written down. But I don’t want to leave this blog without content for too long, I was doing so well before, so I’ll give you the basics of what has happened so that we can can be all caught up. Sound good? Good.
On Saturday I celebrated Naw Ruz, which marks the Baha’i new year and the end of the Nineteen Day Fast. The celebration took place in the Baha’i Centre with hundreds of local Baha’is of pretty much any ethnicity you can care to name. That was the really striking thing about it. Sure, there was still the high school lunchroom racial segregation, with like congregating with like around their own tables- but it was there. Diversity was evident no matter where you looked. I shared the table with Jack and some of his Anglo-Saxon family as well as four charming and friendly Iranians who eagerly told me about their experiences immigrating to Canada and then moving around to spread the faith.
It didn’t reel formal, more like a yearly family reunion. Kids ran amok, the young served the old, the food was basic and hearty and the entertainment was low key and beautiful. It was everything one could expect from a small and friendly community. I left feeling refreshed, and looked forward to being able to investigate all the things I had been denying myself for the last nineteen days.
Paradoxically I miss food. Food really does taste amazing when you limit yourself to one meal a day. You spend a lot of time thinking about it, there’s a lot of build up, and unless you have a specific plan you will feel paralyzed by choice once the sun goes down. Everything looks delicious, and it will be. But now, food is, well… commonplace again. It isn’t special anymore, and tastes just the same. I will often deliberately slow down when I’m eating now so that I can get that same feeling, that same sensitivity to taste, and it actually works. I still find myself thinking that maybe getting by on one meal a day wouldn’t be a bad idea. It is, of course. I’m sure it’s unhealthy for a number of reasons. Still, I miss it.
I still don’t have a lot of time for video games, but they are way better. Feels like anything that’s new and shiny- brilliantly entertaining, novel, and exciting. I look forward to my days off so that I’ll have time to properly enjoy them, heck I’m even willing to wake up early. But I’m also acutely aware of how much time they take up, and that is a truly precious commodity these days. I am starting to feel a pull in myself, a nagging feeling that I might just have to let this favourite pastime of mine slide, perhaps for good. I don’t know if I can do that, I really enjoy the medium and I feel there is an enormous potential there for storytelling and artistic expression. We’ll see.
Sex is, well, awesome. Let us not pretend that it could be otherwise between two adults who have been desperate for each other for more than two weeks. Of the three things I was denying myself during the fast, this was the one I probably thought the most about, and now, almost a week after the fast had concluded, I don’t really think about it anymore. I can’t tell if this is because the fast has helped me master that particular appetite, but it does feel kind of liberating, like I have mastered my body.
All in all the fast was a very positive experience and helped me to appreciate several things that I have taken for granted. I’m looking forward to being able to partake in it again.
Tuesday was my last lesson with Jack, at the end of which he invited me to join the Baha’i faith. I said, “Sure.” Now, let’s back up. Joining the faith does not require a baptismal right, or a formal declaration of faith, communion wafer, list of references, radishes, none of that. Baha’is usually eschew religious rituals, and although joining the faith used to be a bit more onerous it’s now as simple as filing in a card with your name and address, putting it in the post and waiting for your shiny laminated membership card. Going through this process basically brings you formally into the Baha’i community- you’re a member with a monthly newsletter and a card and don’t have any added responsibilities. The expectation is that you’ll take part in the community, but as with anything, you’re level of involvement is strictly up to you. From what I can tell it’s open to people of any belief or persuasion, so long as they’re in good standing. Basically, don’t be a dick. This much I think I can handle.
I can’t say that I don’t have issues with this religion, but from what I’ve seen I feel privileged just to be counted amongst them as a friend. I feel joining their movement in this small way is a fitting cap on my Baha’i experience without being hypocritical. It’s a wonderful community and I would love to keep in touch with them throughout the year and beyond. Also did I mention the card? They put your name on it and everything.
The pandit spoke first. “Mr. Patel, Piscine’s piety is admirable. In these troubled times it’s good to see a boy so keen on God. We all agree on that.” The imam and the priest nodded. “But he can’t be a Hindu, a Christian and a Muslim. It’s impossible. He must choose.”
“I don’t think it’s a crime, but I suppose you’re right,” Father replied. The three murmured agreement and looked heavenward, as did Father, whence they felt the decision must come. Mother looked at me. A silence fell heavily on my shoulders.
“Hmmm, Piscine?” Mother nudged me. “How do you feel about the question?”
“Bapu Gandhi said, ‘All religions are true.’ I just want to love God,” I blurted out, and looked down, red in the face. My embarrassment was contagious. No one said anything. It happened that we were not far from the statue of Gandhi on the esplanade. Stick in hand, an impish smile on his lips, a twinkle in his eyes, the Mahatma walked. I fancy that he heard our conversation, but that he paid even greater attention to my heart. Father cleared his throat and said in a half-voice,
“I suppose that’s what we’re all trying to do—love God.” I thought it very funny that he should say that, he who hadn’t stepped into a temple with a serious intent since I had had the faculty of memory. But it seemed to do the trick. You can’t reprimand a boy for wanting to love God. The three wise men pulled away with stiff, grudging smiles on their faces. Father looked at me for a second, as if to speak, then thought better, said, “Ice cream, anyone?” and headed for the closest ice cream wallah before we could answer. Mother gazed at me a little longer, with an expression that was both tender and perplexed. That was my introduction to interfaith dialogue. Father bought three ice cream sandwiches. We ate them in unusual silence as we continued on our Sunday walk.
-The Life of Pi, Yann Martel