Yesterday I did mushrooms for the first time.
I’m just going to let that sentence hang there, until I get comfortable knowing that I am going to share this with the Internet. This might take a while.
It was a good experience. I was with friends, people I trusted and could rely on if things went bad. I had a couple of ounces, neatly cut up, and chewed with nervous anticipation. The taste wasn’t overpowering or particularly unpleasant. They were dry and unremarkable, really, not like the distinctive smell or taste of pot. But the high I experienced was about the same.
About an hour after I ate my 2 ounces, my compatriots seemed the be having a hell of a time, and I was feeling only sort of buzzed. So on the advisement of experienced (though admittedly disabled) fellow trippers I did another ounce. This was a good idea.
Like I said, the high wasn’t unique, it was almost identical to how I’ve felt after smoking or eating pot. I felt good, sensitive, but never out of control or particularly detached. No hallucinations. Just good.
Once the trip subsided I went to a party and had my first clove cigarette, followed throughout the evening by my second and third. Those things definitely give me a buzz, and combined with a couple of drinks, some pot, and lots of friendly flirting, I maintained a steady warm feeling through the entire evening. I was happy. It was really quite perfect.
This is not something I would ever do normally. I don’t begrudge people their chosen intoxicants, and I’ve always been kind of curious, but I’ve never had a reason to really take that step and just enjoy these kinds of things. Satanism is all about experiencing things that you think, for whatever reason, are forbidden or taboo (so long as no one is harmed) and repeatedly asks the question “Why not?” I’m still not sure what my hangups about drugs are, because there was definitely a feeling that taking mushrooms was breaking some kind of unspoken rule. But I took that step on Saturday, and now that I have, I’m glad. It gave me a chance to talk about the project and reflect upon it with my friends, as well as experience something new and rewarding. I came away feeling refreshed, relaxed, and eager to keep the project going.
It has definitely been the highest point of the year so far.